For grandparents, abortion affects them in unique ways: some experience deep grief and pain; others struggle with disbelief that the act was carried out; and still others participated, deciding that abortion was “best” for their child.

The following is a sampling of posts where we these varied experiences and emotions shared in Human Coalition’s AbortionMemorial.com — a sacred space for honesty, healing, and hope in Christ. This is a unique place where someone can speak openly about the pain of abortion without fear of judgment.

Human Coalition has provided this simple place where confession is allowed, God forgives sin, and shame is wiped clean. AbortionMemorial.com is a website where anyone can talk to an aborted baby from the depths of their heart with all honesty and transparency.

In AbortionMemorial.com, thousands have written letters of confessions, apologies, and words of love to the children they never met but will never forget.

Until every heart finds peace and every child is protected, we will keep offering hope, healing, and a place for tears to turn into prayer.

My grandchild 

It will be exactly one year ago tomorrow that I lost the chance to save you. I never knew your gender, but I call you Billie. I know that you’re with my dad and grandparents and they are looking after you. Until nanny meets you sweet baby you are with me every day in my heart ❤️.

My dear Granddaughter 

I didn’t know what your parents did until months after you were killed. I think about all the things we could have done together; I think about who you would have grown up to be. Your Daddy is so sorry he did this to you and my heart breaks for him as well as you. I love you so much and I never even knew you. Please forgive your Daddy and forgive me for wanting you so much. I pray that The Lord uses your short 20-week life to a greater purpose. I look to the day when I can hug you in heaven.

Some confessions are years after the abortion, but the pain and memories still linger in a grandmother’s heart.

Grandchild 

My dearest grandchild, you would be 17 years old by now. Your mother and father cried about you and suffered. They sought counsel and were told it was ok for them to kill you. Now they both suffer still, and so do I. Not a day goes by that I don’t dream of my beautiful redheaded granddaughter whom I would have been happy to raise. Your mother was never able to have another pregnancy. Please pray for your parents and for me, that I may meet you one day in Heaven.

To my grandbabies 

If I had known you were conceived I would have done all I could to save you. I am so sorry you can never come to Grandpa and my house to spend the night. That I couldn’t rock you, sing to you, post pictures of you on FB, take you to Sunday School and share all I do with you as I do with your brother and sister. I love you and know we will be together when my time on this earth is over. I believe your great grandparents are enjoying you right now. My prayer is that your parents will receive God’s grace, be healed and be there with us. Grandma loves you Baby.

Unfortunately, some grandparents are the instigators of abortion, forcing the decision on their children, believing it’s the “best” decision under the circumstances. So much sadness has been experienced — and joy missed — by both the mom and her parents.

My Sweet Baby Parker♡ 

I NEVER wanted to have you taken away from me. But your grandparents on both sides wanted you to be erased from this Earth. I had no choice my little Angel.

I fought as best as I could for you. I wanted to have you. They told me I had no rights. They said you were a clump of cells. They said it was best for everyone. But it was only best for THEM. Not for US. I am so, so sorry! )’:

I can’t apologize or cry enough tears to ever take back what I’ve done! I want you back. I want a second chance! I want to wake up and have you next to me. Rest In Peace Sweet, Sweet Parker.

Happy 2nd Birthday, My Love 

I was 17 and absolutely terrified. I was going into my senior year of high school, and I didn’t even have a job. Your father and I weren’t on good terms at the time and your grandmother wasn’t having it. I loved you. I still do. I just didn’t have a choice. My mom was gonna kick me out and my dad was gonna let her. I had NO ONE and I had nothing to give you.

I was so scared of what people would think. I didn’t want to be labeled as another statistic: Young, black, single, and pregnant. I wasn’t going out like that. However, the last thing I wanted to do was to let you go altogether. I considered adoption and even just keeping you and raising you myself, but my mother wouldn’t allow it. She basically forced me to have an abortion. I didn’t know until after the fact that what she did was illegal but still, there was nothing I could really do. I love you with all my heart, Pumi. Please forgive me.

Please forgive me. 

I just turned 16 & knew I was pregnant. Minors could not get birth control pills without parental permission. I had been sexually active with my first boyfriend. My single Father found a note I wrote stating I was pregnant. My Father made arrangements overnight. Everything went so fast, I didn’t even think about the morality of abortion. After the fact, I felt so guilty & still do at age 59. I got pregnant again 2 years later. This time we got married. Each pregnancy after that, I was so sure something would be wrong with my baby because of my sin. God is merciful. My daughters were brought up that abortion is never an option. One daughter knew that her baby was going to be born with problems, but she never even considered abortion. I now have a beautiful granddaughter. I know one day I will be with my child. If I could change anything in my life, I would have stood up to my Father & said “NO”.

In Memory of My Baby 

I was 17 the first time I got pregnant. I was so scared. I went to my mom’s friend, and she said, “Well, you definitely don’t want to tell your mom because your parents have such big dreams for you.” So, she took me to a clinic.

I remember it being cold. No one really spoke or looked anyone else in the eye. I blocked it out of my mind for years after I left there.

Years later, I drove to my parents’ house, sat them down, and told them what I had done. My dad asked, “Did you ever think to talk to us before you did these things?”

I said, “No. I didn’t want you to be disappointed.”

He said, “I’m disappointed I don’t have a grandson.”

Today, I have been forgiven, but the pain will never go away.

Choose life and choose it boldly! 

As seen in these few posts, abortion wounds the soul profoundly and the hurt really never goes away. So many grandparents and parents carry the pain of abortion with them their entire lives. Unfortunately, some experience it in isolation. Although many realize the forgiveness found in Jesus Christ, they still struggle to forgive themselves years after the procedure.

Grandparents, please fight for the lives of your grandchildren, even if it costs you. Every life is worth it and deserves the respect of everyone involved. You have the ability to set the example for your children and grandchildren. Choose life and choose it boldly!

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Until abortion becomes unthinkable and unnecessary, www.AbortionMemorial.com will be a place for people to shed tears and freely mourn the loss of a preborn loved one. Until every heart finds peace and every child is protected, we will keep offering hope, healing, and a place for tears to turn into prayer.